whispered wind and cracked cement

Wearing a tank top and shorter shorts for the first time

And when I say shorter shorts, they were only inches above my knee.  Maybe like six.  And I’m tall.  But I always had shorts right to my knee, so wearing these even inside my house was weird at first.

I had gained discernment and impressions about modesty and I felt clearly that tank tops and shorts above the knee were okay to wear…because modesty is about the heart.

Even so, wearing them for the first time was strange.  And I purposefully did so to work through some of the awkward feelings I had about it.

I’m so much better now at wearing what I feel comfortable in, but it does take time to work through what you’ve been taught your whole life, even with knowing it’s okay to be different than what you were taught.

You have to work through shame, worrying what people think of you, your own cognitive dissonance, regulating your nerves, and more.

This goes for more than just modesty.

It’s not about being of the world now.  It’s about being your true self and aligning with truth and agency, not control or false programming.